Culturally, we revere performance and performers. And as musicians we hold those that get on
stage on occasion or all the time in high regard…precisely because we know what they are going through. And
often we’re glad it’s not us!
But if you look at the etymology of the word “Perform” it is
enlightening. It comes to us through Middle
English from the Old French Parfournir to see something through to completion,
to accomplish something.
Well, that’s not so bad….or terrifying, is it? To see something completed is a goal for many
people. And to perform on a stage for a
collection of interested listeners (see – doesn’t that sound less horrible than
“audience”?) is certainly one fitting end to the hours of practice that you
have put in to each piece you have painstakingly learned, refined, and polished.
You are leaning away, thinking that I am only talking about
other people. That you’re not interested
in performing on a stage, that someone else will do such a better job of
it. And that is fine…if you mean it. But if you mean it, why do you envy those
that do it? Are you afraid that you’re not good enough? Or that you’re not prepared enough? The first is doubt driven, second is
correctable if you do want to be on stage.
So, be certain to define your parfournir for yourself –
define what seeing your practice to completion means…and then work your way
there. Performing can be done at many
levels – just don’t stop at a level that is comfortable but doesn’t fit your
definition of complete.